miss_lividi

hehe this is really weird/
i just met this guy from my class in primary school - get this, i knew him before i could read. strange huh?
HEY CJ!!!! YAY FOR YOU COMING DOWNY OWN! yay.. ok that was my moment.
i saw charlie and the chocolate factory twice and its so great.
sorry i haven't updated for ages guys.
I'm a silly bum but you know, thats a part of knowing me and a part of knowing me is/// well.. you know... FATAL
cj is coming down this weekend so i better see her or atleast shake her hand, giggle then run away/// and tahnee's party.shit. i have rehearsal. bum. um. well. i'll see what i can do.
then i need to get tahnee a present. what do you get for the tahnee who seems to have everything? SUGGESTIONS! tahnee, help me.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway.
what's been happening lately:

- school play. people think i'm absolutely funny and i'm great - i hate my part with a passion and lately i've been paying out the director who's name shall remain secret until i get really mad and unfortunately she was saying how she admired me as an actor and that i was talented... i feel slightly guilty.
- i get to go to melbourne in the holidays
- i like cheese
- i need to bake something for cj and put a smiley face on it for when she comes
- yay!

i haven't been on the internet for yonks and man do i not miss it much at all YAY! nah, kidding.
ah/// i feel tired and i probably should do one of the many assignments i have.

bye bye
i love you
don't take drugs
and don't let the bed bugs bite!

miss lividi

i'm really starting to hate the internet. *slaps the internet* I'll teach you to give me unwanted pop ups!!!!!!
ok.. what happened today? um. not much as such. hey i rhymed!
i'm tlkaing jay bra shopping for her birthday... yay for me. um.
i don't know. i really have nothing to say.
silly.
me.
yeah.
bear.
yikes.
bikes.
they rhyme!

I haven't seen that in ages. theres probably a reason as well.
'i'm not josie grosie anymore!'\
how is everybody?
lalalalallalalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i want to have my fairy picnic.


OH YES! Braddon Day tomorrow for me and sma andjasmine... hope jasmine's ok to go though. hehe go though joe... he is slow though joe. nevermind.
then the next day i have no idea what i'm doing apart from a 2 hour rehearsal. DAMN! OHH!!! i wanna see the oyster farmers because steve said it was WAY good.
nyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
um
umu
um
jay'd go see it with me. and jamie. and perhaps flo. no one else would though. sillies.
HMM.
the new bewitched movie was a bit of a shock. not very good. nyah. why do i keep saying that?
i'm leaving (on a jet plane)
byebye
happy jellybeans.

lividi

hello all of you
its the weekend and i'm feeling strange. I want to do something. Josie is sick so we cancelled the sleep over this weekend and we're doing it next weekend instead. Tomorrow i have rehearsal so maybe that'll keep me occupied for a while. Also going over to hannah's beforehand... maybe finding something to do in the murky depths of civic.
I miss everyone. I think everyone misses eachother even if they live in the same city, which sucks. I'm kind of worried about everything but i suppose me getting all hyped about it isnt going to help anything.
geez.
in english we're doing the merchant of venice. I kind of wish we were doing a tragedy... i feel like watching people cry... or atleast reading about it. Apparently Juliet (as in romeo and juliet) is the biggest emo kid of the 1500s... she just complains and cries about how she's so hard done by and romeo is completely blinded by love and gets killed in the process - flo thinks the only good character is mercutio... not sure.
but shakespeare is really good at expressing hurt. maybe its just flo being off in her own world again.
GAH.
thats it.
flo's in her own world and jay over reacts. hmm. we'll have to get them to work on that.
i'm not sure whether to like shakespeare or not. I suppose i do. I like the stories. Flo gets to study awesome stuff at macrob. I wish i went there so badly, not like this boring school i go to now. I mean, its not boring, well... actually bits of it are completely abysmal - its not like i dont like my drama class or my english class.... but they get to study photography and you can hire out your own camera and get film reloads and you get to use the darkroom... you get to write the school production yourself instead of getting freakin JIGSAW to do all the work and they have stuff like magicals and class clowns and you analyse romeo and juliet AND READ THE ENTIRE PLAY AND NOT DO DUMB WORKSHEETS ON WHO YOU THINK SAID WHAT and study interesting things in science unlike the weather which is just about the most boring thing you can study EVER. Also theres all these people who have a personality and the teachers sound better. And oh my horace. They have a school newspaper which is awesome. Its the greatest. You can submit artwork and it pretty much gets the cover. The articles are funny and witty and its done by students and all the photography as well...
anyway.
My school is dumb and hers isn't.
I guess its bound to be good if its the school with the best VCE scores in the state.
Plus they don't have to drop everything and pray every 5 minutes.
Damn canberra.

i want to fall asleep.


Words to sleep by the dandy warhols:
Well I could sleep forever
but it's of her I dream
if I could sleep forever
!!!!!!!!!I could forget about everything!!!!!!!!!
if I could sleep forever
if I could sleep forever
if I could sleep forever

farewell everyone, have a wonderful weekend!

lividi

HEY~~!!!! hi. sorry about the cut and paste but to put in bluntly i couldnt be bothered doing another recount. Sorry. Am I lazy? Perhaps. see you guys tomorrow at school ;) lividi

hey sma,

i'm sorry i missed the first day but, as you shall probably understand, i couldn't risk it. For you see, I had a busy schedule over the weekend and could not find time to read my beloved book titled Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince as i am sure you have heard of and read. I had in total over the weekend about 2 hours to read this book, which meant i only got through about a third of it. I read the last two thirds today. I think its the best book in the series.

ANYWAY.

So thats why i missed school today. What was in my busy schedule? Well i was doing this NIDA acting course thing with an actor called Simon Bossell... and yeah, it was heaps of fun but it was so tiring and usually when i got home i showered, collapsed, ate dinner then straight after my friends did their usual thing of calling me and talking until past midnight each night... so there you go.... it was fun though. But excrutiatingly hard and tiring. Awesome.

How was your holidays? I still have a book to read thanks to a lovely girl by the name of flo. She had her party yesterday -- i wish i went so badly, unfortunately i do not posess riches and time and besides doing that for a party is just mental. Mental. That reminds me, we got impact comics and dee's comics belconnen distributing MENTAL. I dont know if there are any left, we've already got hate mail. cool, huh? flo said she's do volume 2 so email or give your drawings to me to send to her. Meanwhile i'm doing stuff on another zine but since we already got hate mail i dont know if i want to.

OH YEAH. Flo's party. It was an alice in wonderland theme... how great is that? Hunter went as the mad hatter and it was funny cause if he took off his jacket and hat it was him in a white shirt, a stripey tie and black pants. Then he tried to sell people encyclopaedias and people thought he really was one of those encyclopaedia sellers. I wish i went. I'd go as the duchess or the brunette version of alice or the doormouse -- actually that'd be fun cause then i'd eat treacle and sleep all day. yeah... awesome.... but yeah. I wish i were there cause despite me telling nore and lilly and some of the others that they were boring and walked off i really did want to meet them and oh gosh i haven't tap danced for so long and if i saw daniel there we'd just be dancing and talking about fashion and stuff.... he's so great. and he could've designed and made my alice dress for me. actually, the easiest thing for me the to dress up as is the Jabberwocky. I wouldn't even need a costume, just come as i am. (as i were, as you want me to be)

but, i was kept in NIDA with simon the really intense actor from middle earth (hehe) he's really cool but he has this really big intensity about him. god i wish i could get into NIDA. At the course i met lucy again, this girl who did CYT with me last year. I MISS LILIANA. the greatest drama teacher i've ever had. and i met her friends, gracie and tash and then there were some other cool people in the course like Liz, who was this awesome lady who read harry potter and could act really well and yeah... when i asked her who she was playing for her peice she goes, 'Oh, i'm playing edmund, and he's a bastard.' like it was matter of fact. (sorry about the swearing). Liz looked like a retired movie star. i mean, she was old, i think one of the oldest in the class but she was glamorous as well.

everyone's been telling me to see Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mind or something. I think i shall have to see it. :)

Okay, so you have a long long email now! I think this is sufficient.... i don't know how i'm going to manage to type this up again into my live journal. AHA! I love the joys of 'cut' and 'paste'.

I hope your holidays were great and i'll see you at school tomorrow.

lots of love,

liv

my head feels weird. and for some reason i'm listening to ella fitzgerald. i wish i could sing like her... she is a genius. i got a really bad mark on my RE assignment because i had to write a screen play about a christian saint and i wrote it on ella fitz. hheheh.
hmm.
james is arriving tomorrow, yay and flo is over at the moment. then... i don't know. yay. i guess this better be a short entry because ... i don't know. i feel like i'm going to fall asleep at any given moment.

hopefully by the end of this the zine will be done and we shall all celebrate and buy the zine. and impact comics said they could distribute it! yay!

byebye
lividi

hey de ho for all of you people who for some reason may be reading this, happy holidays. its 1:15 and in true hermit style i am at home updating my journal (cue for everyone to yell 'LOSER!' at me). Yesterday me and jasmine and josie saw a movie about pants. don't see it because its like a bad version of Now and Then -- you must all see that movie.
Today flo is due to arrive and i think i'll check my hotmail inbox now. Brb.

g2g i have a life now

Heya everybody. Today I am feeling ok, kind of sleepy -- i fell asleep while watching kenny the shark. KENNY THE SHARK!! I love that show, its so cool. That has the craziest theme song man, its all wack (wiggedy whack? no just the regular kind).
My backs hurting though, I'll tell you that much. I don't have drama anymore :( but its ok cause i get to go to a NIDA course thingie for weenies. Cool, huh?
We had band practise today, it was cool -- hunter's sending me all this awesome stuff he wrote on powertab -- its so cool... its like nine inch nails meets dave navarro solos. very awesome. so talented is that hunter boy. he'd slap me if he read this.
Tomorrow is my fate.... i shall find out if i am in the school play. I have no idea why it means so much to me, i mean, its the school play, right? pretty standard amature stuff (yes i know i spelt it wring for those of you playing at home)... but for some reason i really care. i really can't explain why it matters to me but obviously it does or i wouldn't be making a huge fuss. I guess if it doesn't i'll see about liliana giving me work etc. MEH! SHUTTUP LIVIDI!!!!!!!!
sooooo.... been doing stuff lately? I have. I ate some food. Good, huh??
I love protege moi by placebo. it sounds so cool like a duck.
MYAH REEEE PACKOON!!!
don't ask for a translation for that.
i think now i shall write an email then read some fan fic for jassa (god some of it is funny) and then i shall call up a very close friend of mine master james. :D
peace love and jellybeans,
lividi

today was PiP (canberra youth theatre thingy) and i saw all these people i hadnt seen in ages and it was so cool and i saw liliana and she said there was a chance i could be her actor cause she saod that she'd get her students to do work and sorry for the loss of punctuation but its kind of exciting cause liliana is so cool and talented and she taught me so much and its all AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH THIS IS SO GREAT and now is the time i get over it and *DEEP BREATH*

Today is the last day of CYT for this semester. Its kind of sad really. But it was hell fun too. I wonder what I'll do next term though?
HMM.

School audition for play on monday. Kind of know what I'm doing. Kind of don't. Kind of worried to death. Kind of REALLY REALLU REALLY want to be in this so i'll have something fun to do.
Yeah.

Actually i'm really scared. I'm no good at auditions. I hope i go well. I just don't think the thing i'm performing is going to be funny enough or whatever. ACK.
I guess i will be up for consideration if liliana says i'm one of her best students. I don't know. I want this bad. I guess I'll just work on turning up. *breathe lividi*

ACK.

I WANT IN SO BAD

lividi

UPDATING TIME!!!!
My throat hurts muchly but i am determined to go to school anyway.
It is sunday and now i'm all hyped up about the new HP book - HBP comes out on the 16th, where i shall be one huge hermit i can tell you now. much like my friend the tree. the tree who love happy potter.
must dash... man i cant wait
I DON"T CARE IF YOU DON'T LIKE HARRY POTTER I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!
lividi

MAN! ITS BEEN SO LONG! HOW IS EVERYONE???
Well, today i am supposedly going to 'the greenroom' with jesse and lauren and julia, but as always, they haven't called me with details so i think i shall be the humble hermit once more. Hermit. That reminds me of this zine ella bought at sticky written by a girl called Hermitt (yes, double t) thats really funny... i think she lives in canadia or somethin'... meh... nyah!! hehe canadia... just like germania... meh.
I want to go today but even if jesse rings up i don't have ten dollars to go... hehe so poor am i. Yeah. I want to go though. The Los Capitanes are so great. And the porkers are supposed to be really good. Damn. Oh well, i guess being a hermit isn't so bad.
Jamie came over the previous weekend. He's at home now. Not fair i tell you, not fair. Still not sure about wanting to go to melbourne. I mean, I want to go but theres so much hassle. The routines are getting boring -- and i've only been there for like a week and i can tell you what they are:
Meet at flinders at twelve. Go to number five. Get coffee. Get muffins. Flo yells a bit. Jay tells her to shut up. Flo gets offended. Hunter and Ella complain about those two being stupid. Go past coffee waffle man down the stairs to sticky. Hang out at sticky for an hour. Ella and Hunter complain about how boring it is in there unless they are making a bajillion badges of Brian Molko. Get out. Go to minotaur... or spend massive amounts of time in Peril Underground. Get annoyed at smokedreams. Occasionally visit missing link. Go back to Flinders for the rest of the day where ella, hunter, elsher, kham go and try to impress some of the 'alternative people' at the station where i make some friends, go nuts out of boredom and talk to the sleazy rory guy who's obsessed with spongebob squarepants although everyone says he only says he likes spongebob because he wants to be cool.
I actually really want to see CJ... does anyone know if she's coming down for July? i miss her a lot. I guess not as much as you guys do, but i do miss her a lot. I'd like to see her and sing the white stripes and make fun of hannah and sam in my maths class... hehe that was funny. Now theres just me telling hannah that Legally Blonde II is possibly the shittiest movie i have ever seen with the exception of psycho beach party.
Right now I'm listening to the living end. My guitar teacher says i'm kind of advanced for my age... thats kind of cool. I hope i am. I mean, i don't feel like it. I feel more confused than ever but enjoying it very much indeedly sir.
me and jasmine may possibly do something today.
I hope so with all of my face. hehe face.
civic is boring. boring like melbourne city without flinders st station. I miss it sometimes of course. flinders that is. I'd go like... every 1-2 weeks... but not every weekend. god. that would suck.
anyway... just updating, filling you full of liv-like thoughts.

i'm going to get restless soon. Wish I had business to attend to... some sort of project thing. like the story. that was fun. now its like... 'WHAT THE HELL DO I DO NOW?????'

i shall sign of now by wishing you very muchly loveliness of happiness... yeah...

lots of love,
lividi

hey guys i'm sorry about my bitchy whatsit thingy... you know (the next entry down *grave look*)the fact is, i'm feeling heaps better now and i'm not pretending. I have a new plan for my so called 'friends'. You see, they're not being friendly with eachother. Jay and Flo are forever fighting. They suck, they're worse than alissa and sam. You just wouldnt know it unless you were close to them. I mean, they SAY their best friends, but... meh... i'm not so sure anymore. Then they say I'M their best friend also. Bull. They just like to fight over me cause i'm there. Plus they're both miserable. And angry. At eachother.
i guess i just will have to MAKE them be friends. Its amazing how long this can go on for.
I'm not going to melbourne this july.
And if they want time alone with me they'll have to organise it themselves. I don't care what happens. At least I'll have some kind of life.

Sorry guys, is my point.

I promise i will get you all jelly beans and lollypops one day. Promise.

love,
lividi

i was just thinking... why the hell do people read this? why do you want to know my disgusting depressing introverted thoughts?
as far as i know this LJ is the first proper LJ I've read. People use them as notice boards. Fuck that.
I guess if you wanna read, you read. It's like watching Clockwork Orange. The subject is so horrible but its so weird the way this guy's mind works you just keep going on regardless of whether he'd raped and murdered lots of people and wears a giant rubber strap on with his mates. He's the essence of freak and that's what people find fascinating. I'm crapping on again.

what happens next?
what happens next?

i don't do dares switchfoot.
the first time i heard that song, the emo kid was singing at the folk fest. He was really good. I like him better than the switchfoot version. Same with his wonderwall version. CJ pointed out that we had the same hair. Hehe, we could've gone far, us two -- if i'd known him and hadn't recently cut my hair. Jay hugged him afterwards though. They talked about Taking Back Sunday... jays so amazing like that. She blends in with everyone. Flo has this really addictive personality. It's obvious why they should be friends. Its funny though, i don't know what the hell is going on anymore. The problem is I think I'm the only one. We make these efforts and... well, my head wants to explode.

Tell me why I keep writing

I dont even know myself. It's like this outlet that everyone reads without having to face them in a real situation. The reality of this is that everyone will read this (or the ones that know about it) and never discuss this with me. No, 'liv you must be going through a rough patch' or 'liv do you need mental help?' they'll just act like nothing is going on unless i make a comment about them. To be honest if anyone even asked me how i was going i'd probably just act like nothing is going on with me and change the subject and move on. Its like I'm ripping down the wall that seperates me from all of you guys but you still can't talk to me about it and i act like its always been alright.

I'll tell you right now its not.

But thats ok, because i don't mind pretending. I'm getting pretty good at it. Drama lessons help with it. I pretend all the time, and I never face what's going on around me until i get to this stupid online journal and somehow it all pours out of me like the running rivers down pedro's face (excel saga) and i start crapping on about how 'that gomez' took my sexy wife and son... wait. That's pedro. I start crapping on about how I'm worried about Jay and Flo, and how I refuse to admit that I get nervous when I talk to flo until the end because we never talk often enough. Jay's life is being turned upside down. I hate fucking teenage angst. I want to kill it. I start crapping on about how i don't spend enough time with anyone. Not flo, jay, jamie or hunter. Let alone all those other people.

I miss flo with all of me. I just want to be able to see her face to face, and right now i'm prepared to admit that I hate milan for taking you further away from me then you were flo. I don't like milan. Everytime I see you together I find it hard. But the thing is, milan is a nice guy, he's way nice. But I hate him from taking away most of your time even though it was me who didn't have any fucking time.

I wish jay would be better, i wish she wasn't so bummed about her parents, i wish she thought it was a good thing. i wish we were living in the same city. i wish i could talk to her every day.

I wish i didn't make jamie feel horrible. i wish so badly.

i wish a proper conversation with hunter wasn't a rare thing. I wish we could go over to eachothers houses and play music and make stuff up.

I wish we were all together. We'd make such a good band.

I wish all these stupid 'i miss you' romantic moments didn't need to happen. I wish i could see them more often. I wish i had a fucking elephant. (<pointing out how rediculous i am for wishing all this stuff which wont happen) Local people. Merici. Yeah... i dunno. I feel seperate and close to you at the same time. My life is in a glass box. Everyone can get close and press their faces against the glass but i don't get close to anyone. That includes melbourne, canberra, my family, my dog, me. don't you dare talk to me about this at school or i'll do what i normally do: act like nothing is going on. i think i'll read a book. liv

HEHE Breakfast @ tiffany's... (reffering to title) god i love her character. Is it sad that I can see a bit of me in her? Probably.
AH! CJ POSTED A THINGY ON LJ!!!
ah my rabid ducky, i miss you soo....

I finished my assignments, kind of... i still have my science one due on thursday, but you wouldn't belive how many pretty pictures of condoms i found. I love those campaign posters so much - they're so funny. There's one with an action hero and it says, 'Condoman says, 'don't be shame, be game! PROTECT YOURSELF!' hehehehe.
yeah... i'll load em up for you.

thats what's up with me at the moment.
jeez... i really need to get credit. need to talk to ceej.

miss liv

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

hehe
what do you guys think of taking on the pumpkins? I got the tabs of today, they are perfecto and they don't have any errors in them and they sound beee-autiful in true smashing pumpkins style.
The only thing is, they're real hard. The chord patterns are ok, but the lead is a bit HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO THAT. I haven;t checked the bass yet. Hang on, i'll check now...
CRAP! There is no bass. Nevermind, we can invent some. Anyway, tis a fantastic song, so yeah... you guys up for it? I warn you though, it's gonna be darn hard. I REALLY WANNA. Katie and Devaki know what I'm talking about, HOW AWESOME IS THE SONG???
Yeah. We need to try atleast. It can be our ack why can't we play it yet song. Yes.
Anyway...
I did end up reading Guitar Highway Rose, and can i just say it's my favouritest book at the moment... jeez... you almost with ash was your boyfriend... then again, he's not as good as mine. so nyah!

I wonder how 2000miles is going.
Me and jassa have a harmony.
Um.

The guitar seems to be ok, i kinda wish alissa was more *emphasise dramatically* BANG BANG BANG I AM QUEEN OF THE DRUMKIT BANG BANG THIS THING OWES ME MONEY!!!!!!!!! Yeah.. she's not smacking them like they owe her money. The guitar needs to be more distorted... um... (sorry I'm listening to it to make sure its all cool and we haven't missed out on anything -- i can't get over how much the drums dominate this song) There is a solo... but its shit (sorry sma) easy. its like over one string... or it sounds like it. My pinky finger has gone puffy. and it's my left hand. Which makes it hard to play (believe me, i was trying out 'today' before, and everytime you hear the note of 15th of the open riff you just hear this 'shmlgfff'.

2000 miles sounds like a song we can jump to. We should do that thing like in off the map (RHCP DVD) where they all jump is unision. it looks so cool. I'll show you on tuesday.
I think me and jassa need to work out more harmonyyyyy...

geez... i dunno... devaki, it's kinda gonna be very hard to fit you in songs cause not many songs have 3 guitars... maybe you could be like, if we need an extra guitar, like for instance the eeriness on where is my mind. please don;t get mad at me, i'm stressed just thinking about all this so there's my karma. We still need you though, for like, in case we need more guitar stuff so keep coming and playing with us cause it's fun... we want you to play with us, it's just if the band ever performs or whatever. if.

AGH HOW MUCH DO I WANT KATE HUDSON'S CLOTHES IN ALMOST FAMOUS?! MUCH!!!!!
If you guys see ANY 70s clothing in my size, BUY IT FOR ME, and i shall pay you back. I am retro-less. You guys need to help me.

Um... yeah
Hey, devaki, do you have those pictures of me being a whore? can you send them to me? pleeeeease?
speaking of bands...

I MISS COMIC!

anyway.
now my emo moment is over.

Why is everyone obsessed with paying out emos? me included? i have friends who are emos... i think...meh...
in my opinion everyone smells anyway!!! :P

hmm... i just sent jay and flo the link to the hormone factory site... it's so great. It's almost as good as life education. weeee!
anyway,
updating time. time to update.
i eat food
food is nice
i like food
with lots of spice

i feel sick
i feel sad
i feel insane
and stark raving mad

inside is good
outside is cold
i wish i were
brave and bold

i miss jay,
i miss flo
i wish i could see them
when i say so

how is life?
life for me?
life is sitting
under a tree

how come stuff
goes real bad?
how come stuff gets
emo and sad?

cheer up liv
and stop that rhyme
i think it's
assignment time

shit... i have three... and they're the boring subjects... and i've been avoiding all three for an hour.
I have: one on genital herpes, one onfamily planning, and one on maths.
MATHS AND SEX? ITS A JOKE!!!!!!
geeze.

This is worse than goth poetry!!

Ohkayahhh... today i went to CIVIC with the CIVIC WHORES! Actually... they're not whores. Well, i shouldn't say that as i don't know what they do in their spare time..
anway
oh, speaking of whores, i saw this interesting book in the Electric Shadows bookshop called Actresses and Whores. It was cool. It discussed how in the early days (meaning like... the 1800s leading up till now) girl actors were also regarded as whores, and there was a very fine line between them.
Hmm. I really want to read Guitar Highway Rose. I think I shall borrow that book tomorrow. NOTE TO LIV: BORROW THAT BOOK!!!
p.s you smell!
hehe

Well anway, i went to civic with all the cool people who like chasing pigeons. It was good. I read many a book.
WANT GUITAR HIGHWAY ROSE. I DON"T EVEN WANT TO READ IT THAT BAD BUT I DO CAUSE ITS A MATTER OF PRINCIMABLE!
hehe. I must be bipolar or something. geez. I wonder if anyone would believe me if i told them i was a self-diagnosed bipolar patient.

i miss my llama.

lividi

for some reason i keep updating this thing. why is this?
MEH!
Bass player trouble. Pissing me off actually. Don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. Howsy bout I just let them work it out for themselves. Good idea liv, i love you, mwah. hehe just kidding folks. but not about the working it out themselves thing. I'm so sick of sorting stuff out. Just let them do their stuff. YAY!
I got this DVD back from the thingy that i went to in summer. It's so bad, cept alex's video of original prankster... its good... nyah...
ANYWAY,
today was pretty weird. I spent a good amount of time being dead in history.
That was fun.
Wonder what tomorrow will bring?
I think i shall look for maddlebug's LJ now.
Wish me luck - i think i may be computer retarded.
lividi

hehe... jhonen v. is so great... hehehe worse than goth poetry... genius.
ok, today is a lot better, and yes... um... last time seemed like one of those kodak moments: 'And this is miss liv when she has PMS and a panic attack' YAY!

Well, today was kinda eventful. I have homework. Yay. I actually have to do it this time cause i'm being marked. yay for history. not. BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP! You know what, i don't mind at the moment cause i'm purty happy.

I have drama soon... hehe haven't memorised lines... BLIEEARGINARIO.

Anyway, must eat more, answer emails, blah blah blah... um... yeah..
Oh, and about the whole meltintalle thing for all you people who are mad at me, tell me stuff and email me and all that and i shall see what i can do... yeah

I EAT SPLEEN
lividi

heya... feeling strange. i really want to see flo badly. I wanna work on the zine properly... its so annoying. we can't just say, hey, liv/flo, meet me after school in the state library reading room and we can sort stuff out then we can go negotiate with sticky blah blah blah ARGH I'M GOING INSANE I"M GOING NYAHAAAAHHHAHHAHUAEFDeqf WHY AM I SO FUCKED UP??
Its so hard, and people don't realise it but its so hard and this is my only outlet for it... its so complicated to explain to someone and i don't want any stupid therapy cause that won't help me get it sorted i just need to get organised and maybe i can patch up everyone unhappiness and maybe they'll all be happy together for at least 5 minutes... five minutes. thats all i need. five minutes.
everyone's unhappy.
hunter seems ok but he doesn't talk much to me except when i'm right there, jay is all fucked... i don't know, shes unhappy cos all this stuff is happening which she can't control and she thinks its all her fault... flo's really stressed and missing me on top of all the family, friend, dealing with everyone there being sadness-ness. Jamie's all missing me and getting depressed cause i'm not there and thats bad cause i can't do anything about it and everytime i see them its all messed up in the GAHWRGryq(#HUQ"RQ)(*$#Q# and i cant calm down but i have to because i have homework and i need to stay sane so the people at school don't think i'm worse than they think i am already and i'm grateful for the friends i have at school but its all bad.... and i miss everyone.. and i hurt.... and I HAVE TO STOP COMPLAINING> SHUT UP LIV.
And then theres the zine me and flo are doing. WHY CAN'T WE JUST MEET??? I MISS HER SO BAD I'M SHAKING.
flo's my best friend, we;ve been through so much and i just need her here so we can calm eachother down and bitch about hippos./.. it sounds insane but small things like that keep me going.
help.
help.
help.
frantic

liv

Mlap.
Hello friends.
Tis I again, come to haunt you.
You know what? I really want a Serena Valentino comic. I haven't read any of her stuff as such but i really like her art work. Gee, I wish I were as good as those guys. My drawings are ok, but they're nowhere near as good as sma, flo, devaki, espii... you know... the list never ends. It's all cool though.
I'm at home today.
It's the swimming carnival, and apart from the fact that they make you yell, scream, do primitive dances, give you detentions, paint you blue, get you to dress up, and swim; my back is pretty much in tangles and my knee has done something really weird to itself.
I really should work on my drama assignment.
You know, looking back on my last entries, i realised I haven't even mentioned that I went to melbourne in the holidays. It was rad indeed.
Yeah.
I really like incubus. They have a really strange and awkward arrangements and the lyrics are just so... complete... you know how you listen to a song and the lyrics lack so much? or they're almost complete but theres something about them thats missing and makes you feel inadequate? They're satisfying. Incubus can write songs.
I'm a little cold.
Today feels like one of those days where I should be resting and playing guitar or painting or doing something equally as cliche. I had the sudden urge to dye and cut my hair today. I couldn't find the layering and thinning scissors, and the only hairdye i had was black henna and it doesn't work in my hair. I think today is a hair cutting day.
I really want to thin my hair out so it looks all feathery... you know like in anime? and they have kind of wispy hair... i don't know... then i want to dye it a million different colours... but most of all red pink and blue... jeez, by the time i finish with myself i'll look like a japanese underground raver.... cool.
I missed the rave on the 30th. My back went all spasmistic. It still is. I'm seeing the chiropractor tomorrow (oooooh fancy) yeah... i'm kind of annoyed. They cost a heapload.

Pardon me while i burst into flames.. i've had enough of the world and it's people's mindless caves...

I like the fact that one of the members of incubus looks like donald duck dunn... i find that so cool.
I like the blues brothers.

Yesterday Meltintalle had its first gig type thing (we settled on calling the band meltintalle). Ms. Henderson said we can perform at the end of term concert. YAY! We have some sort of musical thingy going on.

Also... I don't know. I feel like I'm travelling worlds. Melbourne is one, here is another. Man... its like... so frustrating having to go through it, yet i badly want it and i'm all torn up about it. I know I am not quite mentally and emotionally stable and right now i;m not even physically stable (all that back stuff n all) i actually feel quite... screwed.

ANd in this moment i am happy - I wish you were here.

AND HOW THE HELL DO YOU JUGGLE PEOPLE'S ATTENTION SPANS? HOW??? TELL ME>tell me now.

The zine is pretty much done. Oh yeah, we're workin on a zine. That's done, i just needs to send it to flo and get the thumbs up, then we can copy, staple and distribute.

I think that is all (it probably isn't... no matter though)

I hope everyone who reads this doesn't think I'm a nut case, and I bid them good day. :D

Miss Lividi

I guess I should update, huh? Yeah probably, you say.
Well, here I am!
Today was the second day of school this term. It was kinda boring but not unbearable and melbourne was awesome, and i miss cj already and OH YEAH!
CJ! IF YOU CAN READ THIS! WE HAVE A GIG!!!!
AND OUT BAND'S NAME IS 'GHOST OF CJ' BECAUSE YOU"RE STILL WITH US EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT WITH US WITH US AND ALL THAT SOPPY CRAP!

(btw, cj moved to darwin)

AND... yeah... :P meep!

lividi